Thursday, November 22, 2018

Wellness Checkup Baseline - Pt 4: Creativity

To be creative you must first think creatively. To think creatively you just have to be creative.

So this. I'm very frustrated here. I knocked out four or five scenes in a radio play a few weeks ago and haven't touched it since. I sent the first three scenes to some people to make sure I wasn't completely off base with my story. Literally everyone hated the third scene. Unfortunately I have little experience in what needs to happen in that scene, so I know it is the weak. The project has sat idle since I got the feedback. I don't know how to fix it, and I don't want to leave awful in. So I'm stuck. I guess the only solution is to soldier on with my outline and try to create something, even if it's not good. Maybe the next one will be better? I will commit to writing at least one more scene this weekend.

Guitar. I haven't played much. I saw success on Twitch by not playing guitar, and I've come to the realization that I'm bad at it. I run through the 4-5 songs I know by heart unplugged while waiting for other stuff, but if I amp up? Badness. I've been playing for a few years now. I'm pretty sure I should be better than power cords and weak leads. If I want to push this I probably should get a proper tutor. Or I can commit to learning songs that challenge me. Right now that means sitting down for a few hours and learning the lead to "Smoke on the Water." And that idea makes me kind of sad. Still, I think that's what I'll do. My goal for Friday is to be able to play "Smoke on the Water" completely, with no reference. After that I want to commit "White Rabbit" to memory. At least that song I can play from reference.

Twitch. I guess this goes here. Do I want to take Twitch seriously as a creative endeavor? I enjoy producing a stream. When people are watching and chatting, I have a great time. If I have multiple people talking to each other on a stream, it's fantastic. I clearly don't have the personality to do a solo entertainment show. I think I'd make a good ringleader, and probably a better producer. Finding interested participants is probably something I should think about while working on my social life. I'm really happy that I got twitch affiliate status without being a pretty lady, a pro-gamer or a goddamn cartoon character. I don't know if they can take that away if I lose viewership, and I'm kind of afraid to go back to streaming shit where I can't get 3-4 friends to tune in/participate. On the other hand, I've got all this gear sitting around doing basically nothing while I wring my hands. Twitch is a big ball of "I don't know" at the moment.